speechless

I just passed by my friends blog today. It was a totally weird feeling since the airconditioner here in Andrew Building is darn cold and my head is literally spinning back and forth. I feel like two cold flat irons are squeezed against my temple. Excruciating pain!

Anyway, back to my friend's blog. I am honestly shocked that she feels we are falling apart. I never thought of that. I guess I'm so used to calling my friends friends even if I am not talking to them at all. I feel her pain though. I guess I've unconsciously built a gap between us. If she feels that way, i just want her to know that it's unintentional. I'm pretty much preoccupied with a lot of things lately and I guess I never showed I cared the last few days. For that, I am deeply sorry. I will make up.

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One of the things I am pretty much busy with is dealing with the boys in my life. I am promising one thing to myself. After Alpine and Stick - 0, I am not having any more serious obsessions with anyone else no matter how damn cute or hot the guy is. I'd rather study that get myself involved in a pointless relationship which I am so concerned with.

And the other guy who I refer to as A-O because he is so freakin' OA and malandi (hahahaha)... I just am disturbed with this guy. no, I am utterly disgusted. I will not spill the details. I can only say this though: if i am left with only him in this world, Lord God, please take me anyday!!! Hahaha... That's how I love this guy (sarcastically speaking of course)...

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I am hoping to get my act together. There are a lot of things to be done and I guess I have to learn to fix my priorities. I am failing badly in time management. I really have to learn to balance.

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That's pretty much it for now.... Catch you later.

crazy in love...

I know i shouldn't be talking about my lovelife here but I just have to spill it. keeping it all inside will make me burst, literally. I have no one else to talk to but you my dear blog readers.

Anyway, let me start off by saying that I saw Simon Atkins yet again today. He sure can't get any cuter. Yummy guy! Whoever catches that guy is one lucky girl.

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About my lovelife. I can't believe it took me several months to realize that I had one! Hahahahahah!!! Pathetic insect.

I won't name them. Just for safety purposes.

Anyway, I have always been physically attracted to this guy in my accounting class who has been my classmate in every accounting class (let's call him Alphine). After 3 terms, he has been texting me everyday. No people. I still don't think he's interested. It's just that him texting me is making me kilig. Now, that's a major problem if you ask me. I don't want to be in love right now. Not now. distracting!!!

all the other guys, I think I could forget. including my dance partner. He's nice and all but I have to let him be in the arms of the one who deserves him and that is definitely not me.

As for my first dance partner, he is trying to squeeze some info from me. I am not giving him any though. I am keeping it to myself. He doesn't have a chance. He will always and forever be a friend to me, nothing more. I have a feeling he really likes me, I appreciate the attention, but really, i can't give him any more than I am giving him now. he just isn't the right one.


As for Alphine, i don't know where we are right now. I am confused. I know I like him but i just am unsure of his intentions. He doesn't share much and I don't either. I don't even think he seriously wants to be my friend. He may just be texting me because he's bored. We always run out of things to talk to. I get so frustrated. Perplexing... Nonetheless, I guess I'll just have to enjoy him texting me everyday. Atleast that makes me happy.